I’ve been really slogging away with “Dead Rock Star”. I’m close to 50,000 words in and have most of the story covered. I’ve worked it out that the novel ends in three chapters and by this time I should have hit a 60,000 word target, allowing me to add, polish and buff on the second draft. There’s a lot I can add the second time around because I deliberately left space in the text as I just wanted to bang the story out in the first draft, get the framework there and then go back and improve on sections if I felt the need to. Again, this is a bit different for me as usually I aim to get the first draft near enough spot-on and use the second draft just to clear up any mistakes and errors. I’m really looking forward to the ending, which is the big pay-off. I am so looking forward to writing that final section, you just can’t imagine it. In fact, it is the thought of the ending which is driving me on. It’s a bit like a good punchline to a joke – it’s that kind of feeling.
Of course, that’s not to say that there isn’t any doubt. There’s loads. I’m feeling very doubtful at the moment and keep questioning myself in all manner of ways. Why am I doing this? Is this story any good? What’s the point? Am I really a writer? What if I really am that lazy good for nothing bum and this is all a ruse? Should I give up with my music as I am just wasting my time on it? What’s the point of this website when no one visits? Etc. In fact, this self-doubt goes on ad infinitum until it gets boring. Gee, I’ve even bored myself there. But the thing about writing, or any creative task, is that you have to have a level of conceit or arrogance to continue. You have to will yourself on and have self-belief even if sometimes it is a little misplaced. Otherwise you’d stop doing anything and just quit at the first obstacle. And so I am even more determined to finish this story.
On my travels, I found this interesting link which gives some tips to those of us intent on writing a novel. Of course, I never make any of those mistakes (except that time when I wrote a novel and changed a character’s name halfway through and completely forgot about it. Thank god for ‘search and replace’.)

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